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[10 Aug 2004|03:22pm]
This journal will NOT be used anymore. I have a new one.


I am making that one friends only and will not be updating in here anymore.

I'm separating myself from the drama, so if you'd be so kind to leave me out of your conversations, that would be awesome.
Thank you.

Goodbye bitter_memories.
it's been a good couple years.

Go add my other one, i might just add ya back. ;)

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[10 Aug 2004|02:31pm]
All of you are haters.

All of you, act your age.

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[09 Aug 2004|12:34pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

And to Erica Sellers.
I didnt "sell-out"
To sell out i would have had to drink, smoke, or have sex. Which i didnt do any of those things.
So back up and stay outta my business.

Dear Live Journal

All eyes must be on you.
It's a pity you're addicted too.
Now go ahead, manipulate them.
Initiating doubt, a new dynamic found.
By sharing all your weightless problems.
All on the outside looking in.
Take this moment to see what you've begun.
Display this moment to see what you've become.
Defined by what you sell, those lies packaged well.
But you know that we can see right through you.
Attention's wearing thin so type it out again.
I hope this all made you happy.
Forfeit all of your integrity for a temporary high.
Lay it all out for the world to see.
Manufacture one more lie.

WHO CARES?! PERSONAL BELIEFS ARE EXACTLY THAT PERSONAL. SO EVERYONE JUST WORRY ABOUT YOURSELVES AND NOT WHAT OTHERS ARE DOING!! PEOPLE ARE NOT GOING TO BE THE EXACT SAME AS YOU, DEAL WITH IT! For real, would you hate someone because they had brown hair and you had blonde? What about if someone thought the length of your car was 20 ft. and you thought it was 18 ft? Would hate them because those beliefs are different?! No, because that would be ridiculous. Exactly what all this drama crap is, RIDICULOUS!

Now, this will be my last entry, because I will be modifying my friends list and making this friends only.
For those that want to stay, comment or something.
Changes are being made.

Save the drama.
It's so annoying.
Drop it and get off those high horses and stop glorifying your selves.

Also, I dont want to see any of those "oh Tara" comments.
So anything rude, wont stay.

Not to make you all think i'm angry or crazy, i'm just sick of it.
And I'm not angry. :)

Much Love.

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[04 Aug 2004|01:53pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I'm drug free and I will stay that way, but for Christ, not for anyone else.
I will NOT claim straight edge, i will not be surrounded w. all the bullshi*t that comes with it.
I'm sorry, but sxe has become a hate thing, its become an anti-christ thing. And I will not claim it.
I am drug free, and i didnt sell out. I just dont want that title.
I think i'm going to change my screen name because it has xxx in it.
I just dont want to be looked at like the other lame kids out there.
Deal with it.

Give me real, dont give me fake.
I found out who was though.
I've changed a lot of things because of last night.
Why is the human race that freaking messed up?
and i'm talking about most people. Not even the "enemies"

You guys can take your sxe and shove it for all I care, i dont even want to hear about it.
I might delete my LJ too, because I hate it.
I hate looking at my friends list, i hate saying my feelings.
It just pisses people off. And currently, i dont care if I do.
So if you have a rude comment, say it to my FACE. Dont put it on your livejournal under an anonymous name (not saying it happened, but if it does) and dont comment in here w. it.
Most of you have turned your backs.
I dont have anger in me for those people, but pity.
I hope you all feel convicted.
I'm sure you should.

You all have showed me the real you, and its not a good thing.

</i>"Best friend means I'll pull the trigger, best friend means you get what you deserve"</i>

I'm out.

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[28 Jul 2004|11:38pm]
Watch out for Moroncore and T-Rexxx.

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[28 Jul 2004|10:55pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Things are going very well w. me.
It is well w. my soul.
I mean I have wonderful friends that i love so much, my family is awesome that i also love very much.
I just wanted you all to know.

I love my ninja boyfriend, he's amazing. ;)

Sheesh. I'm sleepy.
I think I'm going to try and get a job w. Eric.. :D that would own.

My birthday is in one month and 8 days.
School is starting soon.. :(
No fun.


I miss those girls.

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[27 Jul 2004|11:09am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Its b-e-a-utiful outside.
Sunny and only 68 degrees. Crazy for it being July.
I didnt think that i would be sitting around in longsleeves..
Its nice. :)

So there are two shows on Friday that S.S is playing so i'll be attending those and then Saturday we venture to the Georgetown Drive-in to see The Village and Alien Vs. Predator. If anyone wants to go, you are more than welcome to come. Just holla.

Saturday night until i think next Saturday i have to stay at my uncles and house sit. :)
Fuuuun times in store.

The past weekend was fun. hung out w. Bridget, that was fun, she was missed.
Also; Blake, Scott, Beastmanda, Allison, Rance, Justin, and James on Saturday. :)
We tried dancing like Rance hahaha.
Dancing it up was fun, even if we werent the best at it. ;)

I miss Laura Love.

Bible study is at 7:30 tonight!

Bored and stolen from Phaedra :DCollapse )

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[22 Jul 2004|04:55pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

So, no show tonight.
Due to Blake working in the morning.
Oh well, i'll get over it.

Anyway, we're supposed to go swimming today.
We better.. because I didnt fix my hurr.
Its a tid-bit messy. :)
Its also very blonde now.
Maybe soon some other color(s)..
I'm so bored with it.
Laura..lets do something w. it.

My layout is pretty..its not quite done..but pretty.
Ashley <33 ty for the tib-bits..

I hope you all have fun tonight at the show.
I'm sure i'll be at Comeback Kid. Everyone go, it'll be fun.
and support alkeldama too. :)

um..where is the weekend?

Why is everyone going to the beach? Take me with you guys!

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[22 Jul 2004|04:14pm]
New layout...whaaaat. :)

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[21 Jul 2004|01:33pm]
Bowling Alley show has been moved to a youth center in Jeff. CALL AND GET DIRECTIONS FROM EITHER ME OR BLAKE OR ANY OTHER BAND MEMBER!!

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[20 Jul 2004|11:14am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

To clear some things up.

Ya know..
I agree w. Ashley.. there is WAY too much LJ drama.
I will look at my friends list, but i will not read anyones that involves it. You all know who you are too.
And just because we walked off doesnt mean we're bad christians either. It means we're not supporting their words of criticizing our God. And thank you for your input too.
Oh and another thing everyone, our bible study fellowship..
We do NOT think we're better than anyone..Who ever wants to come, is more than welcome. Who ever doesnt want to come, we DONT think you're wrong for not going. Who ever doesnt go to church or is a christian..we dont think you're wrong. and certain people know that for a fact. So we dont think we're better than ANYONE and we dont think that if your beliefs are different than they're wrong.
Thank you. I wanted to get that across to you.

And also, maybe what you're doing you think is right.
And alright, but lets all stop fighting.
We're tearing each other apart. We dont need that.

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[20 Jul 2004|10:53am]
[ mood | determined ]

So I'm not sure how my internet is going to hold out..
The parentals and I got into a heated fight last night, and i think my mom is going to cancel it..
Yeah..they're a little crazy. :(
I hope not, that will cause more problems..
alright no more whining.

I went and saw I, Robot last night with Phaedra, Chris, Stephanie, Jeremy, Scott, Amanda, Blake, Derrick, Bj, and Savannah. It was a good movie, and i really enjoyed going w. all those people. Ya know.. if you make plans like last minute, they usually work better than those you try to make in advance.. huh, weird. Even Blake came out. <3
Last night makes me miss everyone x a million.
I love you all. :)

Alright, bible study tonight.

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[19 Jul 2004|12:25pm]
[ mood | bored ]

..and I want to update my journal..

I'm not quite sure what I want to say though..

The past weekend was really awesome, i had so much fun.
Beebsfest was good times.
i got to see a lot of people I dont normally see.
I miss Kacye Juday like crazy.
We had fun muhahah. :)
And hung out w. Derrick...its nice to have him around again.
I talked to Sean Smith for a few minutes..that was cool.
Unlike its been, we didnt fight or anything.
Also, Laura Love hung out too this weekend. Good deal.
My weekend was spent w. Blake..fun mmkay. <3

I'm sick of a lot of things. Sick of going through my lj friends list and alksdjfl;. Grr, its annoying.

but anyway, there is a show Wednesday the 21st!
Sacred Sorrow
My Finest Hour
A Grey Funeral
Silver Creek Lanes 7p.m. $5
Shall be fun.

Also, seeing Evergreen Terrace and Caliban thursday. whooot.
I'm excited.

And also, Megan, I hope your birthday was awesome!!

Happy birthday Shane! :D

I think I covered everything..

Steven, dont go to boot camp. :'(ez

and also..i just found a ninja in my refrigerator...weird.

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[15 Jul 2004|11:29am]
[ mood | happy ]


Laura, if you read this. Call me!

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[13 Jul 2004|01:34pm]

Bible study has been moved to WEDNESDAY!

For you all to know, because i know a lot of you are planning on coming. And if i dont talk to you, i'm sure you'll read this.

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[10 Jul 2004|01:19pm]

Got my hurr did.Collapse )

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[09 Jul 2004|10:01am]
[ mood | calm ]

Praise Adonai.

Today I shall be getting my hurr cut.
Hopefully it turns out awesome, which i'm sure it will.
And I will definitely post pictures of it.

Wow, an old friend has come back.
Derrick, it was nice talking to you last night.
And thank you for telling me about all the people i thought were my friends that now just talk about me. Wow, how people can change, and not even for the better.
But oh well, if they come to me w. an apology, they will be forgiven. But if not, i guess our friendship meant nothing.
Oh well, thank you all you guys. you sure showed me a lot, too. and i'm being serious, not sarcastic.

On another note..
My B'ake had to work today, and be there at 5 a.m..
poor thing, i feel bad for him. he really didnt want to go. <3

I miss Ashley Turner.

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[07 Jul 2004|11:26pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

I want you all to know, yes, I am a Christian.
As of now, i'm going to really start living and witnessing the way i'm supposed to. Bad habits are very hard to kick, but w. a lot of help, and God on my side, it's possible.
This body is just an earth suit, suitable for the enemy to break down. What we need to focus on as Christians is that we are immortal, we will go on. And when we treat our soul like our body, that is wrong. The world is full of sin and satan is here to break us down, we need to fight back and kick him out of our lives. Don't let him enter, our bodies are the body of Christ, and we shall treat them like it. Dont give in to temptation, for it is letting the enemy in and he is going to take over. Fight back. We can not give into something that is wrong because "it feels good" or because "everyone else does it". No, that is not what we're supposed to be doing. We're here to serve our God, not the people around us. We dont need to focus on what others think.. Are we doing these things for God..Or are we doing it for ourselves?
We can not let the enemy take over us. We're given the most beautiful and wonderful gift ever, we're given the gift of salvation..the gift that Jesus died for us, we didnt deserve it..at all. For him dying, we are saved.
And we take it for granted, all the time.
How many times have you just slapped God in the face, how many times have you just stabbed him in the back? I know you dont want to admit that if you're a Christian, but i'm sure it's been over 100 times. Yes, we're human, but we have to look at the ultimate price that was paid, and not on ourselves.
A lot of change has happened in me. I'm so thankful. Please, accept it. Things will be different.
Thank you for letting me share.
I was once shared with..When a phoenix dies, it comes back a lot stronger..

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[06 Jul 2004|04:56pm]
[ mood | creative ]

So I really want to get my hair cut.
And I want it short again.
Not too terribly short, but shorter..
I am very ready for change.

Here it is now..

And I want angled bangs, shorter, layers and flipped out.
I think that is what i'll do.
What do you guys think??

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